You may thought I didn't receive chocolate or reject by someone, but it's not...
I would hope to receive no chocolate or reject by someone instead or having such a bad thing !
Well, I was the one who make this happen...
In the morning, everything was fine... but then... when then time showed 11.25am. the nightmare started...
Like usual, you turned emo every time we went bengkel or science lab... Well, I just want to make things change... but I seemed that I only made thing worst...
I am a failure! You didn't hurt me, but wake me up from the dream...
You are right, I'm selfish... I always thought that I'd been left out when the rest of my team are chatting or having fun and I can't mix in... Or even when there is training or gathering, I am always be the last one to know...
I'm too selfish that, I'm jealous when I saw you and one of my best friend chatting happily... because he ignored me for about few weeks, and seriously... I felt lonely... because of he ignored and didn't chat with me or reply my messenge for the whole month... and when I saw you just chatted a few sentences with him... and I'm jealous... this is selfish I know... and... I'm sorry... ='(
Yea... I'm not a qualified friend... I always thought I am the one who had been left out, but... my friends also have those feeling... I never thought about that... In the bengkel or science lab, you acted emo because of us... we chatted and joked there without noticing you and yet I blame you... you can't mix in us just like I can't mix with my teammates... You feel what I feel and yet... I scolded you for no reason... I am the one who did it wrongly... yet, you apologize to me... the one who break the ice to talk to me the next day is you again...
I dunno what to say... I just don't want to lost a friend like you... really.... I'm sorry... ="(
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